It’s time to talk.
For a long time I didn’t talk about my anxiety, I was nervous of it, frightened of it, in total denial about it.
Although I was told by a therapist back in 2014 that I ‘had it’, I didn’t acknowledge it for years after that. Maybe it was because there wasn’t a huge conversation surrounding mental health at the time, maybe it was because I was ignorant, or maybe I was just scared to deal with my emotions – whatever it was, I suffered in silence for a long time.
It wasn’t until last year that I really began to accept it as a part of my life and talk about it openly. I wrote my first blog post about it called “I’m Scared To Walk My Dog“, a month later I wrote about “Accepting Anxiety” and then at the beginning of this year I wrote about all the things people say to me that they shouldn’t when I’m in the midst of a panic.
Since I have started talking, my life has got so much better. I’m not ashamed anymore, I’m not having to internalise the panic that I feel, I feel lighter and I feel so much happier.
I did this interview with the wonderful team at Head Talks at the end of last year (when my hair was looking very blonde) and I’m really proud of it, not least of all because this was the first time in my life I was truly, truly open with my own mental health struggles.
If I may, I will ask you to watch this video, to check out the other amazing interviews on the Head Talks website and I will implore you to talk.
It doesn’t matter who you talk to, it doesn’t matter what about, you just need to talk. Open your mouth and let the words fall out. You don’t need to be ashamed or embarrassed.
The bravest thing I ever did was talk about anxiety, nothing takes more strength and there is nothing I am more proud of myself for.
So please, take it from me, things will feel much easier after a conversation.